It feels odd. Coming back here. This blog. It's taken me about a week to write this. I kept coming back. Deleting bits. Adding bits. The thing is, I'm not an emotional person. I'm emotional, obviously. I have emotions but I don't embrace grief. I guess I'm very British.
I don't like to talk about it.
But I've been told that I should talk about it. That if I don't talk about it I'll be how I was pre-Sherlock. And I can't go back to that. I've a life now.
I understand that he's dead. And I accept it. I still believe in him. In who he was. The truth behind that will come out, I believe that. But Sherlock is dead and that period of my life is behind me.
And that's what life is. Things happen. Then they're in the past. And you move on to new things. New people. New friends. New beginnings.
But it's also important not to forget the past. And I've found a few photos and a few blog posts I never finished so over the next few weeks I'll be doing that really. Remembering the past.
And I won't feel sad about it. Not any more. Because they were good times. We did good and we had fun. And that's what I'm going to remember. My best friend, and he'd kill me for saying that's what he was, is dead. Sherlock Holmes is dead.
But, by God, he'll never be forgotten.
You're doing the right thing, John.
E Thompson 20 april
Yeah. It feels good. Thanks. Typing up the old cases now.
Some of us still believe in Sherlock.
Jacob Sowersby 20 April
Thanks Jacob. Your video still makes me smile.
Come for a drink soon, mate.
Mike Stamford 20 April
I'd like a drink if you can spare a minute.
Mrs Hudson 20 April
He saved my life. I'll never lose faith in him.
Let's go for a drink later. X
Everyone thinks drink is the answer but it isn't.
Harry Watson 20 April4
I don't think there is an answer. I've just got to keep going.
And you will. X
Harry Watson 20 April
I am an experienced medical doctor recently returned from Afghanistan.